half-angelic

today is my dad's birthday.
if i was still alive he would have turned 60 years old.

i really miss him and today is a really painfull day. we where always a close family and when someone got a big number such as 50 or 60 it meant having a big birthday party full of laughter and funny stuff.
but sadley my family only counts 3 members namely my mother, little brother and me.

when i think about it it really hurts to know that i don't have any grandparents or uncles left. (well i have 1 uncle but he doesn't care about us).

still i wanna congratulate my dear father for turning 60 years old and tell him that i miss him very much.
so happy birthday dad

Konjajachiwa fellow deviations.

Finally summervacation has begun here in the netherlands and i'm already bored.

But when i think about that this year wil be my first time at abunai i'm not that bored anymore.

It's because i still have alot to do for my cosplay as syaoran from tsubasa reservoire chronicle.

I still have to make the cosplay together with
but the sword of syaoran is almost done i still have to paint it and assemble the rest on the sword. But it already looks awesome and all thanks to she helped me step by step to create it from cardboard.

About my drawing yup i will finish some of them and put them on deviant but first the sword and cosplay.

****status props & cosplay****

syaoran sword:           80% done. (needs paint and assemble)
syaoran black cosplay:    0% done. (needs cloth to make it)

Konjajachiwa fellow deviations

i want to ask everyone of you to read my friend mogwai's journal and enter the contest that's she will hold. mogwai1988.deviantart.com/

the contest is all about crossovers so for example naruto who meets peter pan.
everything is possible but only if you believe. i know that everyone of you have it in you to draw a crossover sow please enter this competition and win a prize but for most all JUST HAVE FUN!!!!

CONTEST THEME: CROSSOVERS
DEADLINE 21-02-2010.
every type of media is allowed, writing, flashanimation, drawings both traditional and digital, sketches you name it it can enter.

1ste prize: 3 month subscription
2de prize: 1 month subscription.
3th prize: One free request.

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Konjajachiwa fellow deviations


Yo long time no read.
before i'm going to tell you all about the past year i want to ask everyone of you to read my friend mogwai's journal and enter the contest that's she will hold.

the contest is all about crossovers so for example naruto who meets peter pan.
everything is possible but only if you believe.

everything is permitted except mature art. so please enter the contest mogwai1988.deviantart.com/jour…

well about the past year so many things happend.
i had to quit PABO but i started a new college called social studies. i like it but i really had to adjust because it's been a long time ago that I had to learn from books.

i'm in psychological help because of my past burn-out and because of the problems here at home with my brother and mom.

with the harmonie we are going on concours in roggel Brabant Nederlands someday in november we train very hard.

i'm still in love and happy with my love.

on the animecon 2009 i was Tidus en this year i'm going as syoaran together with my friend we form the tsubasa group kurogane, fye, sakura, mokona and me as syoaran.

but that's it for now I must go now because i should be on school tomorrow at half past 9.

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Yo long time no read.

Well I was very bizzy with school and work an at home and with friends and with my music and with another 100 other stuff that it got to much for me to handle so conclusion I had to step back from school and I must go into therapy. They already put me into fear of failure training because when I have a math test I get a blackout. My only luck this year is that I have really good friends who support me and another lucky thing well I will keep that a secret for a little while.

The worst thing that happened to me this year was the day that my grandfather died.
It was horrible he was the last one I had. The number of family members has come to 2 that is not fair how come that everything or everyone I care about has to be taken away.

After that, things got worse I had a mental breakdown so now I'm sitting home because of that stupid time out for school. I'm really bored the only thing that keeps me going are my friends *one in special* my work, art and internship.

I will be so glad if the animecon 2009 is finally there. I'm going as tidus I got the costume niekje-chan is making the blitz ball my shoes are ready in about 4 days and my hair is getting longer so I have to make a appointment at the hairdresser.

Also my 23rd birthday is coming up. * Damn I'm getting old* I'm not a big fan of birthday parties and I'm not sure if I'm up for it. But maybe some fun with my friends will do me good.

I will try and put some new art on deviant I have a lot of not finished once on my pc.
Also I will try and put some more journals on especially for my birthday and the animecon.

But for now I will say bye bye till next time.

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